Thursday, February 23, 2012

just some ramblings...

Here's some pics from Waterton the other day, it was so beautiful and we had so much fun with the Vaz's and our sleds! That hill behind us is what we were going down and we really got some speed I tell ya!

Well I guess I just can't keep up with this whole blogging thing consistently. I'm not sure what I am doing with my time, but it seems some days I just don't have enough of it (or energy). I don't know how I used to fit this in once a week way back when. Mostly I can't figure out what the heck I talked about! But get ready, I'll give it to you this week!

I really can't stop thinking about time lately. Ever since I turned 30 I feel like my life has been on fast forward. This might have something to do with a baby coming 2 weeks after, but still. I find myself all the time thinking 'would everybody just SLOW DOWN for a minute! Alli put on some jeans yesterday and I almost wanted to get mad at her because they were floods. Sage is 4 stinkin months old already!

I know it is so lame and I sound like a Grandma when I talk like this, but this has been on my mind lately. I just want my kids to stay still and be kids like this forever! Because I feel this way, I sometimes let things slide around the house. Last night we had a late supper and after at 7:30 (the kids are usually in bed around 8) we all went over to my parents house to play on the wii until 9:30. The kids loved it and I did too and I'm pretty sure Grandma and Grandpa always love a visit! Derek was tired and was like what the heck are you doing because we did the same thing on Sunday and had been out kinda late the whole week frankly because there is no school this week. But sometimes the day gets away and I just want to do something fun with the kids and my kids are at an age where if they stay up late here and there they still function the next day. (they get that from Derek not me!)

Anyway, what I am saying is that I do want to seize the day. Did you see that article a while back that was floating around? I thought it was great. I'm too lazy to find it and link it. But it was good from what I remember of it a month ago. However, when the old ladies tell me to savor the moment and it goes by to fast I really honestly do try to. I genuinely do appreciate the reminder. It is always a good reminder even when you feel like the tamer of the circus at the zoo! I love my kids in this crazy outta control wanna hug and kiss and squeeze and hold them forever kind of way, I also want to spank them sometimes, I don't but it sure has crossed my mind and I don't think there is anything wrong with feeling that way. I love my kids 100% of the time but I do believe it is ok to breathe a sigh of relief when dad walks in the door or when they are all tucked in bed for the night.

I feel like I am working so hard to raise kind respecting children. I feel those are 2 very powerful traits to have and I am so very happy when I see my kids act this way...on occasion, but I realize they are children. I would be a liar if I said I am a perfect mother who makes supper every night complete with all the food groups for my obedient kids and all we do is hug and kiss and laugh and play and learn and stay up late playing the wii all the time. It isn't realistic to be happy with your kids all the time, it's hard for me to write that, but it's true. At the same time I sure hope my kids do remember the late night family bike rides or going out for ice cream and not when I am pulling my hair out in the grocery store line talking to them through my gritted smiling teeth or telling them 17 times to hurry up and put on their coats and shoes and get going with a slightly raised voice. That's what I want to remember.

My time is going on like it always has, I just have more things besides myself to fill it. I wouldn't have it any other way. I love the things that fill my time and I guess I just hope that whatever it is that I am doing is worthwhile.

Now let's not end so seriously or I might not get any comments. I sang a song to James the other day about all the things he likes to do so he and Alli sang one to me. It included such things as yoga, Primary, Sage, running, quiet kids, (hehe, I do shush them more than usual in our small quarters when Sage is sleeping) your friends, sleeping and doing crafts with Rhonda. I think they summed up what I am doing with my time pretty good! Although I feel like I should get credit for doing crafts with them because I only crafted with Rhonda once in recent memory and I'm not sure how they even knew I did that and I pull out that craft box with them regularly!

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

10 things on a day of love

1. I made pink pancakes for supper. The kids love breakfast for supper. I tried one heart shape and it didn't work so I was glad I made the batter pink. I love those kids.

2. Almost every Valentine my kids brought home was super cute and/or had a treat on it. Mine was just a box from Wal-Mart. You're welcome every mom that got one less treat from my kid! Except the treat that was Justin Bieber from Alli!

3. Derek and I got each other the same thing for each other. A magazine and a treat, we planned nothing. And we were both happy. Derek also cleaned up the kitchen really good and didn't complain when it it was breakfast for supper. I love him.

(The 3 babies born September, October, November on Talia's blessing day on Sunday. I'm pretty sure it will never get old taking pictures of these 3 cute babies together!)

4. Sage has found her voice. It is loud and cute. She smiles when you look at her and even laughs on her own without having to be tickled and baby talked out of your mind. She is 4 months old today. WHAT?! Love her.

(I don't know if you can tell but her hair is super curly out of the bath. The hair that is left anyway, she's a side sleeper!)

5. I don't think I mentioned that Derek is coaching the jv basketball team with his brother Ryan. I told him no at first because Sage was like a day old... And then for some reason I had a moment of weakness and told him to do it. Love that Derek is doing something he loves.

6. If nothing else came out of it (for me that is, because he better be getting all sorts of life lessons or whatever out they do out of this) at least we got to tag along to Calgary for a tournament on the weekend and go swimming at the hotel and see our cousins! He's had so much going on since the fall really and it all kinda ends in March and April. It will be weird when he can be home at 4:00 most days. I'm sure he'll find something else to do, but I was thinking maybe I'll find something to do and he can hang out at home! I'll love that!

7. We had a mouse incident at our house. Let me start out by saying the last time I saw a mouse was maybe 2 or 3 years ago in the fall. (I may have mentioned this on here before)We were at Indian Battle Park with some family. I saw a mouse run through the grass in front of me (in its own habitat where it is allowed to be and SHOULD be because that is not in my house) and poor little Lindsay freaked out and cried like a baby. Yep, you bet I cried. I was laughing at the same time, but I was crying and could not stop and lost sleep for a while there.
Here is the most recent installment in my life. It's a long story, I'll try and sum it. Alli screamed and in the end I think I put the thought in her head that the flash of a shadow she saw was a mouse. But let me tell you, I did not even see anything and I went directly into to my mental mouse phobia state. My poor kids are scarred, I'm serious, I truly feel bad for what I have done to them. Derek was gone coaching some dang basketball game. To sum it up, when Alli screamed I froze and immediately thought she saw a mouse, it was that kind of a scream TO ME. I freaked Alli out and she was cryingand wouldn't say what she saw. I made my kids gather my things, (good thing we were on our way out the door) had a heart rate of oh 200, couldn't talk or breathe normal, dry heaved a little, cried to my inlaws as they drove to coach some other dang basketball game, went and got traps, found my parents were still in Mexico, went to the fabulous Rhonda's house while Regan set up traps for me, went home 4 hours later and made the kids go in the door first, turned every light on in the house, music and tv too, got Alli to bed and let James stay up with me until Derek got home and haven't slept good since and I finally started making supper again. Derek is such a good sport about this crazy woman that appears when those rodents appear. I feel sorry for him, I know I'm insane, but I honestly cannot help it. I wish I didn't act this way. This was 2 weeks ago and I only think about about 2 or 3 times per hour instead of every waking minute, I'm not joking. SO, in these 2 weeks, there has been no sign of anything lurking in my cupboards, the traps are untouched, and I can finally put my feet on the floor in the middle of the night when I'm feeding Sage, but I won't go in the food storage room, even though Derek has checked it multiple times and nothing, and we were upstairs when the saga occurred. That was really long and I feel like I have about 2 more pages worth of things I could say about all this. I'm sorry, but I'm hoping this is therapy for the crazy woman. I'm not sure I can find anything to love about that.

8. Back to lovely things. I love when my kids play and get along together. Some mornings before school they get so so deep in play that I have to get kind of mad at them to snap out of it and get ready and eat lunch, and then I feel all bad and mean after. I love when they are good and I am nice.

9. I have been blogging for 6 years! I started when Alli was right about the age Sage is right now. Check out my 1st lame post. But I did do a valentines post all those years ago! (Derek got me a massage 6 years ago for Valentines, this year he got one for himself on Valentines...he also happily hung out with us between practise and mutual and that dang massage!)I love that I have been doing this (off and on) for such a long time. Love all my readers and commenters too!

(if you take the time to go read my 1st valentines post you'll get this pic and see that Sage is slightly bigger than Alli at this age! and no her diaper doesn't need to be changed that's just how small the outfit is. I still don't know who this girl looks like)

10. I had a couple little Valentines parties for the kids last week. It was fun and cute. I planned the same things to do for each party, and they turned out so different! Girls spent forever doing a craft and the boys just wanted to wrestle!